A Colorful Brand New World
I was totally a straight girl before I met her.
It was the third day I came to Waseda. All the new students were meeting together for the first time. We were chatting and eating and laughing. Everyone was so excited about the new life they got and new people they met. Then the girl who was beside me said “hello” to me.
“Hello. Where are you from?” This greeting opened the conversation that evening, and it also opened my heart. She was beautiful, quiet and gentle. She seemed a little tired and lonely. Her voice was soft and low, with a little sense of lazy. I was very happy to talk to her and acquaint with her. We changed our contact information and ready to be friends.
At that night after the meeting, I was thinking, “if I were a lesbian, she would be the type of girl that I like.” It was just a quick thought, which I didn’t pay much attention to. And at that time, I never realized that I had already fallen in love with this beautiful young lady.
As days passed, I was increasingly eager to see her, to talk to her, to be together with her. When I didn’t see her, she was full of my thought; when I saw her, she was full of my sight. I just couldn’t help thinking of her. I knew I miss her, I knew I love her, and I knew that I’m much more than just a straight girl.
The feeling of love was so sweet. Everything could remind me of her. Every time I thought about her, I would smile from my heart. It was exactly the same feeling as I was falling in love with boys.
Yes. I love boys. I love girls. I became bisexual at my late 20’s. From then on, I see a beautiful, colorful, cheerful brand new world. It feels fantastic!
Lynne, GSAPS